My thoughts are hard to write out, or even share for that matter. In my head it all makes sense but in my mouth, words refuse to form. It's very frustrating and that is why I will always just smile. I'm sorry that when I'm sad I smile. It's a whole lot easier than explaining everything or anything at all. 

I constantly feel like I'm missing out on everything. Like everything is happening somewhere else. Like I'm not living life to the fullest. The problem is that I never do anything to change it. I just sit here and write about it. I sit here and while somewhere over the rainbow amazing things are happening. Amazing things that I'm missing out on. I need to change now because before I know it, this will all be over. These 'teenage' years only last so long. I'm going to live for a little while and then I will die. I might as well make the best of it while I can. It is my life after all. I'm the one who moves my feet and when I'm ready to change, I will. Then again, maybe I shouldn't wait until I'm ready. I don't think I'm ever going to be ready to change. I doubt anyone ever really is. The time is now. If it's a sign I've been waiting for, here it is.

This is the first entry after a hiatus of 2 odd years. In all honesty, I felt like blogging has lost its appeal. I no longer felt the need to update this space hence the long hiatus.

I'm still quite uncertain if I'd make a comeback in the blogosphere. Well, we'll see. So long and good night.